blackrthanblack | (no subject)

Don't really have much I could ask you anymore, but I have a few small curiousities.

1: Do you ever regret getting your legal name changed to Shula?

2: Why did you choose to draw hentai, anyway?

1. Not really. Though I think it makes me a bit crazy. D8

2. Because Porn is fun and nice and wholesome and happy.

I was a bit worried when you decided you were going to change your name. Still, how is it making you 'crazy'?

...mmm...

I think I'm trying to become the role too much.

What.

...is there something I could do to help you?

...sorry love, I can't really agree with you there... at the least, not on the 'wholesome' part.

I dunno. :( I think I play a role regardless of what I do.

Why.

It worries me, love. ...even if I do find your motherly-ness both adorable and alluring.

Sex for me has always been a sign of emotional and physical intimacy. Porn cheapens it to being meaningless to me.

I mean, drawn porn is fine... it's fantasy, and humans have to have something to fall back on. But strip clubs and normal porn... it's women selling themselves short. Or maybe giving up on real love entirely.

Well, I am my Sister's split personality, and we know how stable her brain is. And I like being adorable and alluring.

Sex and Porn are emotionally and physically intimate for me.

Why do they have to give up on real love?

You've always been more stable, though. Sure, you have patches, but it's mostly understandable considering the circumstances with those.

So you're 'intimate' with selling your sexuality? Intimate with cold hard cash, then?

Not that they have to, that they have. They've sold themselves, so it'll never be as special. There will always be the element of 'just one more' to a relationship. There isn't as much to anchor it. There'll forever be a question of settling, or unfaithfulness, or future abandonment. Once you've sold yourself, sold sex, you've put a price on it. It's no longer precious, it's a priced commodity.

I guess I did get ahead of myself a bit, though. Sometimes people just do what they have to to get by, and would gladly stop if they could. All the same, it's a tragedy that they had to sell themselves in the first place.

... Patches, wut.

If I can sell out early on to get myself ahead and do what I really want to do, why not. Dignity of the public's something you can buy later on.

There's dissonance, you know. It's entirely possible.

Like with the Hiita thing, and how you have wild mood swings between housewife and frustrated with a bottle modes. At least (besides for the Hiita thing) you know you're Shiyoko/Shula, though.

You can't buy back your lost dignity. You can buy public opinion, but that's fairly cheap, and swings easily.

People should make their way as someone who works hard, or is creative. Making money just for being a piece of meat and glorified sex toy just isn't right.

... Well, I guess that's technically prostitution, but porn is pretty similar, and you're 'sold' to the public at large, which in some ways is worse.

... Honestly I think of myself as Shiyoko. Haven't felt Hiita in months.

Opinion. Dignity. Same thing to me.

I like working hard, being creative, and being a piece of meat, though.

There's nothing wrong with either, as long as you aren't coerced or forced into it.

Well that's good. Maybe you've gotten over that.

It should stay in private, with the one you love. It makes it all the more special when it's only given to them, and no one else.

I love you, but I really disagree.

Let us hope.

... Dear, have you considered you're just a wee bit Yandere?

That's silly, guys don't get Yandere.

Besides, it's normal that people think of sex as something private. I'd say your view is the more unique if anything.

I suppose an argument could be made for needing to be open minded, but this is just one thing I can't do that with.

Yes they do. It's kind of a hot to a degree.

:( But there's nothing wrong or deviant with sex.

And I argue that point that you're a bit close minded, darling.

I'd say they get jealous and petty, if anything.

Sex, no. Participating in porn, yes.

I suppose I am, in some ways. Still, this is one thing I don't think I'll ever change my mind on.

What do you think being Yandere is?

... Arguable.

:(

Cheery demeanor with a murderous side and a single minded desire to own someone else entirely and utterly.

I love you, but you also consider rape to be intimate. Even between married spouses that's illegal in most civilized nations. Porn is treated more lightly, but still very frowned upon, and never mentioned in polite company.

Which is driven by petty jealousy and lust.

8(

Jealousy, probably. But it doesn't even have to be lust. Just a desire to own someone.

So boys can be Yandere, just it comes off as Jerk jock boyfriend.

But they're jerk jocks. Yanderes act sweet and demure as a front.

And you act sweet and demure as a front. And act awfully possessive. :|a

No, I act weird and goofy.

And I'm only a little possessive. A little over protective at times, maybe, but that's another category.

Well, I consider you a sweet non-crazy Yandere. So deal.

Well, I guess if you can accept that I find porn objectionable, I can accept that you consider me somewhat yandere.

...

Though, I suppose if I went Yandere, I could off Onni and claim I was just acting in character.

And so could me breaking your arms and legs and possibly walking out on you. I know you hate him, but Onni is not to be killed.

...I was joking, love.

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