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[blackrthanblack]

Looking for a new Events Planner. Competent People only can apply.

Also, if the dating auction is not arranged soon, I will be requesting a refund from Goggles, and the event will be abandoned.

... Also, it's weird that Supernatural Foxes like Dog Food. And it keeps bringing me rabbits. Cooked through. ... On plates.

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[blackrthanblack.livejournal.com]

Good.

... So, how are you doing? Feeling alright? You seem more perky.

[becomeanwarrior.livejournal.com]

I'm doing pretty good, all things considered. I feel more perky and energetic.. but that may be bounceback from a couple days ago. I got real down.

[blackrthanblack.livejournal.com]

Oh?

[becomeanwarrior.livejournal.com]

..Yeah, just a bit. I'm fine now, I think. I hope, at least. It was just.. really unexpectedly painful, I suppose.

[blackrthanblack.livejournal.com]

... If you're down, you can take an extra week on this.

[becomeanwarrior.livejournal.com]

No no no, I'm fine! ...To be honest, it probably should've been expected that would happen at least in some form... I'm not gonna dwell on it. It's just another part of my list of things I've gotta do.

After all.. facing down impossible odds was what made me who I was, right? Even if I was defined by failure?

[blackrthanblack.livejournal.com]

Uh. Huh.

... Yeah. Pretty much. Though you failed most of the time, dork.

[becomeanwarrior.livejournal.com]

..I..I'll be fine. No worries. No need to push silly stuff onto you, Shiyoko.

..Yeah.. that's what I heard. It sounds kinda sad, actually.

[blackrthanblack.livejournal.com]

Better you do.

[becomeanwarrior.livejournal.com]

...Well...

[Private to Shiyoko]

Basically, I got super upset because your sister is convinced I'm a fake now, holds us both responsible for my fakeness, and generally considers herself to be a demon. It's.. silly compared to other stuff, I know. But still.

[Private to the Dork]

[blackrthanblack.livejournal.com]

... Demon?

... Fake?

... Well I did some how make you into a total not loser.

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[becomeanwarrior.livejournal.com]

She's basically convinced she's some demon-damned soul. I got a little too worked up over it.

She basically is convinced my personality changes have made me 'a fake' in her words.

..True, you did. And I don't mind it because I feel like me. But... her words hurt.

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[blackrthanblack.livejournal.com]

... Oh that rant. Never listen to it.

It would. Shiroko has very funny definitions of reality.

Shiroko, while kinda crazy, sees things in a way that's... freaky observant.

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[becomeanwarrior.livejournal.com]

..Right.

...It just.. I guess it just hurt. Being called a fake when I don't think I am, when I feel like me, but at the same time... I know that I've been changed. So she may have a point.

...yeah, that's one way of putting it.

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[blackrthanblack.livejournal.com]

Sorry if I seem shallow, I've just heard the same old song for years from her.

... Well, you're not the Haitayuu Onnifuji I knew. So you're kinda fake in that aspect.

On the other hand, she is sorta bonkers, and I say that kindly as her little sister.

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[becomeanwarrior.livejournal.com]

No.. it's alright... I just wish she wouldn't be so hard on herself. I want to see her.. relaxed and happy.

...That's I guess what she means.. it.. feels weird. A fish out of water thing, I guess. Just... I guess I took it a little too hard.

...She needs to relax more, and let herself smile more.

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[blackrthanblack.livejournal.com]

... Shiroko. Not be hard on herself. Oh boy, that's the funniest joke I've heard all week.

And the only ones she'll melt around are me and Shikou.

No. She thinks you're an alien fake. You're not just different, you're fake, a fraud, an imitation, a putz, a forgery.

... Listen to yourself, boyo. You ain't Shiky, and ya ain't me. So you're not gonna be getting her to melt and go all girly sappy "Oh Onni-kun~" around you.

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[becomeanwarrior.livejournal.com]

...Mn.

Of course. I know that, but still!

..Yeah..

I.. I don't want her to go all sappy on me like that! I know she's with Shikou-san and I wouldn't dream of trying to split them up when she's happy with him! I just want her to be happy period! I want her to not have to look down at herself for any arbitrary reason. I want her to live a long, cheerful life!

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[blackrthanblack.livejournal.com]

Still what?

... She's going to look down on herself. A dog kicked long enough and told to hate itself is gonna hate herself. She's honestly, though, really in one of the best moods I've seen her in years.

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[becomeanwarrior.livejournal.com]

...No. I suppose it's really nothing special if I say I still want to try to make her life happier than it really is.

That's depressing, to say the least.

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[blackrthanblack.livejournal.com]

Pretty much. If you are a star trying to illuminate her life at night, Shikou's the damn sun during the day. No comparison. Ji Endo.

... How?

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[becomeanwarrior.livejournal.com]

...Really, you're right... there's no comparison.. but even so.. I just.. have this desire to help her, even if what I do seems inconsequential. That's why I wanted to distract myself by helping with other things.

The fact that she can call herself a damned demon and be make claims about wanting to kill millions of people and yet this is one of the best moods she's ever been in.

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[blackrthanblack.livejournal.com]

... Thanks. I do really need the help though, Strangles. If the whole... Event Planny thing doesn't work out, talk to Suggy and see if she needs help with SIDES.

... You do realize she's a racist xenophobic cunt who wants to see every living Duel Monster she doesn't know dead? And she hates anything that doesn't count as purely human, including herself, ne?

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[becomeanwarrior.livejournal.com]

...Then.. you can count on me to be the go-to guy for help, Shiyoko.

Yes. But... that doesn't matter. She deserve to smile and be happy. That's all there is to it.

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[blackrthanblack.livejournal.com]

Then you are hereby officially dubbed Butt Monkey Strangles.

... She does smile and is happy. She just keeps it in the pocket she lets no one else see.